Good God, I am a lazy blogger. Not that that's something to be proud of, but still, just need to say it.
Over the past month, I have found out a lot of things about myself. Most importantly, that I am human. Unable to control the elements around me.
My relationship with my best friend is, to say the very least, on the rocks. Each day, it feels as if we're drifting away from each other. Not for lack of effort on my part. Honestly, I don't even know what could cause this. I mean, we used to share a lot of things and views with each other. We haven't had a proper conversation in a month. For the first time in my life, I fear the end of our friendship, dissolving like foam on the sea, with no reason.
And with my two Academic Exercises, seven assignments, tons of weekly homework, Project to Japan..I fear I may succumb to all of this.
But yet, I also felt happy. I found that I am surrounded by many a good friend. My friends from the debate team (and one really patient senior who spends her time listening to and advising me), have always been supportive. Also my friends from the East Asian Studies. They have taught me the meaning of true teamwork (while only a month ago, I detested that word). God willing, we'll succeed in our efforts, and have Japan as our reward.
And I am glad when I found out earlier this month that a friend of mine is already in a relationship. I am honestly happy for her. Love is so difficult to find nowadays, and for someone to get it, it's a good thing. I'm a bit jealous of that happiness of having that close a relationship, I must admit, but I won't be bitter. I'm just happy.
An for the best friend I mentioned above? All I can say is that I trust her. That's what good friends are supposed to do. The ball is in her court, and I trust that when she is ready, she'll return the serve.
So much for friendship.
My relationship with my best friend is, to say the very least, on the rocks. Each day, it feels as if we're drifting away from each other. Not for lack of effort on my part. Honestly, I don't even know what could cause this. I mean, we used to share a lot of things and views with each other. We haven't had a proper conversation in a month. For the first time in my life, I fear the end of our friendship, dissolving like foam on the sea, with no reason.
And with my two Academic Exercises, seven assignments, tons of weekly homework, Project to Japan..I fear I may succumb to all of this.
But yet, I also felt happy. I found that I am surrounded by many a good friend. My friends from the debate team (and one really patient senior who spends her time listening to and advising me), have always been supportive. Also my friends from the East Asian Studies. They have taught me the meaning of true teamwork (while only a month ago, I detested that word). God willing, we'll succeed in our efforts, and have Japan as our reward.
And I am glad when I found out earlier this month that a friend of mine is already in a relationship. I am honestly happy for her. Love is so difficult to find nowadays, and for someone to get it, it's a good thing. I'm a bit jealous of that happiness of having that close a relationship, I must admit, but I won't be bitter. I'm just happy.
An for the best friend I mentioned above? All I can say is that I trust her. That's what good friends are supposed to do. The ball is in her court, and I trust that when she is ready, she'll return the serve.
So much for friendship.
