Hmm...

It's finally happening.
I have waited for three years for it to happen. The opportunity to compete in international debating tournaments is finally given to me. I'm going to Bangkok in 6 days. All the years of hope, and pain, and heartbreak, and depression, and training, and reading...debates have shaped me in my three years in university. And all I wanted was the opportunity to compete internationally. And I am given it.

I'm not supposed to sound ungrateful. This is not like last year. This is exactly what I wanted. What I always wanted since I joined debates in my first year.

But why am I not feeling happy at all?